> This site has a SERIOUS sensitivity problem. <
Now I sent relatively this same message directly to Scrydan but I'm going to make this public right now because I wasn't CLEAR enough when I was BREAK DOWN SUICIDAL.
How dare someone make it seem like I would post something like that in a moment of weakness. In a moment of despair and anger. My deepest and darkest time I've ever been... for attention?
Let me tell you something. I've suffered from anxiety and depression my entire life and I've never once self harmed or thought hard about suicide but yesterday was the first time I ever did and let me tell you I came damn close.
Close enough that I made a new hole in my belt to wrap my neck. For attention? You should be ashamed. The reason I didn't provide any details was because I was distraught and lost and in a bad mental state. And couldn't put into words what I was feeling or what I was planning to do exactly. But now you know.
A LOT of you don't understand how depression works and how it effects the mind. How it can make you do stupid things in times of weakness. Sure maybe I should have explained more but I was in such a horrid mental state at the time that I just couldn't. To clarify, I don't give a damn about it being thrown in the trash. As a matter of fact I asked Scrydan to delete the thread entirely so HIS response would disappear.
The fact is I was an hour from ending my life. And I didn't. And just to come on and basically be accused of being an attention seeker really is a BB to the balls.
                                                                                                                  
                              
Now I sent relatively this same message directly to Scrydan but I'm going to make this public right now because I wasn't CLEAR enough when I was BREAK DOWN SUICIDAL.
How dare someone make it seem like I would post something like that in a moment of weakness. In a moment of despair and anger. My deepest and darkest time I've ever been... for attention?
Let me tell you something. I've suffered from anxiety and depression my entire life and I've never once self harmed or thought hard about suicide but yesterday was the first time I ever did and let me tell you I came damn close.
Close enough that I made a new hole in my belt to wrap my neck. For attention? You should be ashamed. The reason I didn't provide any details was because I was distraught and lost and in a bad mental state. And couldn't put into words what I was feeling or what I was planning to do exactly. But now you know.
A LOT of you don't understand how depression works and how it effects the mind. How it can make you do stupid things in times of weakness. Sure maybe I should have explained more but I was in such a horrid mental state at the time that I just couldn't. To clarify, I don't give a damn about it being thrown in the trash. As a matter of fact I asked Scrydan to delete the thread entirely so HIS response would disappear.
The fact is I was an hour from ending my life. And I didn't. And just to come on and basically be accused of being an attention seeker really is a BB to the balls.