smwc is a good place, with good people and good stuff.
for several months now, ive been feeling a huge disconnect with the site though. my feelings, opinions, and thoughts are different from those held by the community, the staff team, etc. smwc is headed in a direction that i dont really agree with. this has caused drama in a few cases
i look back to "pantsugate" and how close i was to outright leaving the site, splitting the community in the process. i was prepared to do it. it was pretty much a done deal. but i didnt do it. i chickened out at the last minute, and i always wonder why.
its obvious i have strong feelings for the site. its pretty much the first and only community where i feel at home. where i can be heard. where i can have an impact, good or bad. where i am able to contribute things, and receive feedback on them, even if lately i feel like the work i put into the site and community isn't appreciated as much as i'd like. that may be a contributor to the disconnection i feel.
i have lots of friends here. some feel the same way i do about smwc. however, they are more aggressive. they dislike the community, harbor resentment for the staff team, etc. this has brushed off on me in some cases. they even go as far as to create alternate communities, or leave the site, much like i almost did. im stuck in a position where i want to believe in the site and in the friends i have here
there's not much i can do about anything. so i'll just continue contributing what i've been contributing. if i clash heads with someone or something, like what always happens even if i dont want it to, then oh well. if i deserve another staff position due to my positive contributions, then oh well. if i deserve a permaban due to my negative contributions, then oh well.
not leaving or ranting or seeking attention or anything. i just wanted to post my thoughts. staff can throw this thread wherever they want, but not before banning derpybackslide
for several months now, ive been feeling a huge disconnect with the site though. my feelings, opinions, and thoughts are different from those held by the community, the staff team, etc. smwc is headed in a direction that i dont really agree with. this has caused drama in a few cases
i look back to "pantsugate" and how close i was to outright leaving the site, splitting the community in the process. i was prepared to do it. it was pretty much a done deal. but i didnt do it. i chickened out at the last minute, and i always wonder why.
its obvious i have strong feelings for the site. its pretty much the first and only community where i feel at home. where i can be heard. where i can have an impact, good or bad. where i am able to contribute things, and receive feedback on them, even if lately i feel like the work i put into the site and community isn't appreciated as much as i'd like. that may be a contributor to the disconnection i feel.
i have lots of friends here. some feel the same way i do about smwc. however, they are more aggressive. they dislike the community, harbor resentment for the staff team, etc. this has brushed off on me in some cases. they even go as far as to create alternate communities, or leave the site, much like i almost did. im stuck in a position where i want to believe in the site and in the friends i have here
there's not much i can do about anything. so i'll just continue contributing what i've been contributing. if i clash heads with someone or something, like what always happens even if i dont want it to, then oh well. if i deserve another staff position due to my positive contributions, then oh well. if i deserve a permaban due to my negative contributions, then oh well.
not leaving or ranting or seeking attention or anything. i just wanted to post my thoughts. staff can throw this thread wherever they want, but not before banning derpybackslide